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Sunday, 08 November 2009

Saturday, 07 November 2009

  • slowly falling apart.

    I am so frustrated with my weight.  I can't seem to lose anymore weight. i really dont wanna go back to spore fat like how i did in July. it was the most horrid feeling ever. i didnt even dare to step out of the house. my self-esteem has dropped so much i dont know if i can ever get the confidence back again.

    i realized how fat i was today, when i was trying on a dress.. and my whole day was ruined. but i have no one to blame but myself. im fat because of myself. i ate so much chocolates cos i was lonely. i need someone to be there with me, but because i didnt, i ate loads of chocolates to make myself better. thinking it was my friend, i took comfort in it. now only do i know that it is my worst enemy. not only chocolate, fries is my other enemy.

    i'm so frustrated that i am actually disgusted with myself. how did i let myself become like that. the discipline, the determination, the confidence..is all gone. i need to get it back.

    Disgusted with myself.

Friday, 06 November 2009

  • i see you

    I'm sitting across from you
    And dreaming of the things I do
    I don't speak, you don't know me at all

    For fear of what you might do
    I say nothing but stare at you
    And I'm dreaming
    I'm trippin' over you

    Truth be told
    My problems old
    You mean the world to be but you'll never know
    You could be cruel to me
    While we're risking the way that I see you
    That I see you (3x)
    That I see

    Conversations
    Not me at all
    I'm hesitating
    Only to fall
    And I'm waiting, I'm hating everyone

    Could it be you fell for me?
    And any possible similarity
    If its all, how would I know?
    You never knew me at all but I see you
    But I see you

    I'm standing across from you (But I see you)
    I've dreamt alone, now the dreams won't do (But I see you)
    I'm standing across from you (But I see you)
    I've dreamt alone, now the dreams won't do (But I see you)

    Truth be told, my problems old
    You mean the world to me
    But you'll never know
    You could be cruel to me
    While we're risking the way that I see you
    But I see you (4x)

    I'm standing across from you (But I see you)
    I've dreamt alone, now the dreams won't do (But I see you)


    But I see you
    But I see you
    But I see you

Wednesday, 04 November 2009

  • the climb

    when we were young, and fell down, daddy and mummy would tell us to pick ourselves us up and walk again. this simply encouragement magically brings us a long way in life. sometimes, when things don't go our way and the world seems to be crashing down on you, you dont just give up and think that my life's over. instead, you pick yourself up and walk again.

    these few weeks are gonna be a hell of ride. with examinations coming up and trying to lose as much weight as i can before i come home to Singapore. to all you ACJC people. you are gonna go through the toughest ride of your life now, A levels. pls always keep in mind that it will all be over and you can pat yourself on the back and say, "we did it". i'm so proud of all of you. keep it up!

    if you fall, dont let go, cos there's noone to catch you, but yourself.

Monday, 02 November 2009

  • weight weight go away!

    weight weight go away,
    never come back to me again.

    arghhh my weight is so frustrating!!!! why am i so fat?!!???!!! seriously, not gonna eat chicken ham anymore. will finish the one in my fridge and thats it..gonna be those disgusting girls who don't eat. ok well not literally don't eat, but will someone share the food with me?

Thursday, 29 October 2009

Wednesday, 28 October 2009

  • a new step, a new walk

    Does anyone read Manga? yeah, the Japanese anime comic book? so, since i love to draw although noones really knows that i do except for my sisters, i just recently started on my first Manga book. i know it sounds silly, but hey, you gotta start somewhere.

    Now, i'm creating my characters in my little sketch book. so stay tuned cos i'll be posting some of my work up on the blog.

    take care!!!!

Sunday, 25 October 2009

  • fears

    I'm afraid you'll hurt me, i'm afraid you do not care. But somehow, i'm willing to put myself out there. the fear is catching up with me, as i fall deeper into your presence. A dear friend told me that when it come to dating guys, i'm not stupid, but rather, i just really wanna find the right guy. whatever it is, i just hope that you won't run away, don't hide. lie down with me, with pencils in our hands,lets draw our secrets together into a story.

    i'm afraid of getting hurt.

    please tell me you're not gonna do that.

Wednesday, 21 October 2009

  • baby steps

     yay got my learners' license yesterday..did my basic theory and got full marks..haha good good..i was so nervous!

    i was just looking at my school calender and got a shock at how fast time is flying. so, next wekk i have my english report due, the week after my arts report due,and the week after that is the last day of school. how freakin fast is that..oh man, i have not even started revising for anything. arghhh..

    but anyways, on to more cool stuff! this may not be cool to some people, but i'm a computer idiot, and i manage to get a heart shaped cursor! teehee i'm so excited.

    so,daddy came to Brisbane last week..i skip school and went to the beach. had mexican and turkish food..it was to die for! oh and took neoprints with my daddy! haha so fun!





Friday, 16 October 2009

  • im sad, im happy

    you spoke to me last night. it really hit me how much you treasure me. i love you so much. i always have for the last what..4 years that we've known each other. you really make my days better, my sleep at night peaceful and my lonely times accompanied by you. thank you for everything and thank you so much for coming into my life. although i can;t say your name, i hope you know who you are.

    i miss Singapore so much. family, doggies, friends, AC.. can;t wait to come home.

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